Emotions as Messengers. Are you listening?
September 26, 2018
Nazaré, Portugal
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Why not? If not now, when?
On my morning walk to the beach to watch the surfers I had an intense urge to call my ex-husband, Steve. He and I have a love for the beach which started from the beginning, nearly 30 years ago. We spent our summers in a group house in Bethany Beach, Delaware and eventually bought our own home outside Rehoboth Beach, Delaware.
A lump in my throat was the first signal of sadness and grief. I wanted to push it away and yet I knew it was an important messenger. “I don’t want to feel this,” I mumbled. “Why can’t I be over the grief of the ending of my marriage? It’s been a year and half. Isn’t that enough time? Why do I still experience moments of sadness?”
Because I’m human. And I have memories. Sometimes bitter, sometimes sweet. I know that sometimes I will miss him. Sometimes I will cry.
I allowed the tears to flow and my throat released its tight grip. I sat on this cliff and watch the surfers. I sent warm thoughts to Steve. “May you be happy and healthy. May you be free from suffering and delusion. May you have ease of being.”
I don’t understand feelings. I do know they are messengers that have a positive intention for me. When I allow all of them to just be and pass through me, I feel better and can go on with my day – lighter, clearer, and happier.
How do you allow yourself to experience loss?